Wednesday 5 December 2012

The Get Up

      want to be
            uncivilised

with dull sky Summer late morning
                crows at yellowgreen verges

   piss in a bottle
         then pour out
       at driving speed
                  human brine

Well, no-one there now
             at the levers.

               hangers-on people about
           from before stick people
       to pretend away

Is it a mistaken thing, this bad action
                                          lump of self?

               That what won't be shifted

   stickiness
   remindering
       
                hand-squeezed figurine

                uncleanness    

            a warm mist halo
                     all around

             species made up
   of small or insignificant hurts

           And yet here's a sparkling
      evental fadeout and gap with Sun in.

Still. And still, wetness
                    at that point;
    glistening overcoat.

        the victory cape I got given for
             wearing out

You write in condensation:
              we are
             almost scum
               today
            but not.


2 comments:

  1. This is a beautifully measured distancing of the self as discovered in a wander through the image (wreckage) yard of memory. A portrait of the artist as youthful acute sensitivity, defined by its resistance to whatever or whoever would define it as scum -- or as anything. The cape was given for wearing out and/but is worn out. In this projected doubleness is found victory.


    a warm mist halo
    all around

    species made up
    of small or insignificant hurts

    And yet here's a sparkling
    evental fadeout and gap with Sun in.

    Still. And still, wetness
    at that point;
    glistening overcoat.

    the victory cape I got given for
    wearing out

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  2. Thank you, TC.

    The doubleness you point to is crucial. To be honest in writing in any way. you have to sit with it, I reckon.

    Living with the truth that remembering can never be recovery is hard.

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